You know what I find fascinating? watching people. this may seem a little stalker-like, but in reality, it really isn't. Sometimes, when I'm sitting in a library, or outside on a bench, eating my lunch, I become more aware of the people passing by me. There's the old professor character, who hasn't lost his youth, in his sweatshirt and jeans. There's the immature boys who still have nothing better to talk about besides sex and sports....and sex. Did i mention sex? There's students who dress so fashionably, I get jealous, always fantasizing whether they're actually famous lawyers who came down to McMaster for a snack before their big case (although I know this isn't true). Then you get the "ditzy girls". When you're lucky enough to catch a bit of their conversation, there's enough "likes and oh my god's and whatever's" that you think your brain might shrink just from being at such a close proximity to them. You'll catch the occasional person who's talking about their classes, and exam anxiety attacks, or a person who's been roused up about their last lecture, that they've found different topics to discuss about it - topics relatable to the content, but about 10x more interesting. It's like a movie or documentary.

I feel like I get a sense of who they are just by eavesdropping about 10 seconds of their conversation as they pass me by. Actually, I wouldn't call it eavesdropping as I don't intentionally listen to them specifically. In Psychology, they call it the Double-Filter, where the mind focuses on the important information, but also vaguely keeps the background information attainable. I don't listen to them, I just happen to catch something in what that their saying amusing/interesting, and my mind focuses on it - "Oh my God, this is the first time I haven't felt like partying." (I always wonder how people manage to party EVERY NIGHT.)

I think I think too much. I always find myself wondering about the strangest things. Just as I like to observe the random passer-by, I also like to marvel at the idea of what their lives must be like. Do the people who drink every night and party all the time have a reason for it? I always wonder if they're running away from their problems. Are the people who are amazingly intelligent aware of how much smarter they are than the average population? Are they like us, searching for something more? Could the next person that passes by me be my next family physician or the future nobel prize winner for curing cancer? I believe everyone is here for a reason and within that mindset, you'd think that we're all connected in some way. My life may influence someone else's indirectly - maybe someone that I may have randomly run into a few years ago.

It's 2:14am in the morning, and I'm pondering this to myself. I am so weird.
There's much more to blog about, I just have no time.
Maybe tomorrow... I have one class. SCORE.


you see, zero didn't satisfy me
a million didn't make me happy
that's when I learned a lesson
that it's all about your perception