Entry: June 20, 2009 @ 10:39 AM
you had me at hello.
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again..."
anyway, last night i had the weirdest dream ever and if i don't record it somewhere i'm scared i'll forget it. i was sitting in someone's house. i'm presuming it's edmund's house, because of later events. so as it happens, i'm sitting at a lunch table, and light is shining through the closed backyard sliding door. i'm sitting at a table with a group of basketball people (?) i presume. i was at one of those family get-togethers that i pretty much go to because my parents want to. anyways, i think it was more of basketball people AND family friends AND my outer family.
we're there and i'm sitting beside this guy who looks like a younger luis manzano. it wasn't him though so just think of a blurred face. it just had some of his facial features. i was talking to this guy, and it suddenly occurred to me that i had liked him between when i broke up with my ex-boyfriend and when i started dating ij, my new boyfriend. i had decided and told him that i didn't wanna be with him b/c i loved ij. (the thing is, in real life, i've never met this guy!) while he was talking with the rest of them, i started to realize that he really was an amazing guy and i really wanted to talk to him again. so i nudged him and i said "do you think we can talk for a bit later? alone?" he nodded and then after a few minutes of silence he said to the group of us at the table "do you think it's possible for someone to back out of a promise they made to someone, a sort of commitment?" (around those lines). i instantly knew that he was talking about me and how i said we couldn't be together b/c i loved ij. i walked out of the room and apparently out of the house.
when i came back, he wasn't there so i sat on the stair steps in front of the door and sat in front of edmund. he then started to recite something on a paper, and i knew it was a note from the luis manzano guy, so i started to walk down the stairs when suddenly i heard a specific part of the note as edmund read it. "I can't take you back because I know if you do, I would give you everything......even my jewel." - or something like that. I think jewel meant virginity or something....or symbolic wise - his love? b/c in the note, he was trying to tell me that he would give everything for me and that he was in love with me. I went back to edmund, asked for the note, and left.
the next scene was in my bedroom as i read over the note. it felt so real, i held the wrinkled piece of paper in my hand and i saw his writing and i read all the words and i remember even thinking to myself - wow he really loves me. i remember the note had so many long words - showing that he was really intelligent and very romantic to write that note =) i EVEN remember that at the bottom it said in some sort of sentence that he had entrusted the note to someone he KNEW he could trust to give to me (edmund). then i remember edmund coming in and i think he was with a girl because i remember her gushing about this guy and how he's been offered spots at different universities in northern, southern, eastern and western ontario and how he's really smart and really cute. in my dream, i asked edmund if i was ever going to see him again and edmund said that i would see him again once because he was going back to the states. i then wondered aloud "how is this gonna work???" and edmund said something around the lines of "it could...he DOES have dual monitors", which has nothing to do with anything LOL but yeah, i guess he meant video chatting.
then...
i woke up.
but honestly...the dream felt so real, and i was talking to ij about it and i honestly don't know who this person is b/c i've never seen him before and the guys that i've liked inbetween dating kevin and ij don't look anything like him or even have the personality of him. ij suggests he's my dream guy. i wonder....
this is luis manzano. but i swear to you...only some of his facial features were the same. he didn't look like this...and he wasn't this old either.
1 Comments:
Dream guy - literally, don't get it twisted, LOL
June 21, 2009 at 1:32 AM
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