Sometimes I feel like I'm too harsh on highschool, but honestly I hate looking back at it. The only year I can remember being even slightly good was the first year. Random moments of my highschool experience stand out the most to me like becoming best friends with Ashlee and band trips and Leader of the Pack and small, tiny, memories that made me happy during that time. My good marks kept me sane. My friends from work who let me vent out to them after school kept me sane. My family and the good times I had with THEM kept me sane.

Ugh.

But every time I think about my highschool experience as a whole?...I feel so mad at the world. I feel betrayed, hurt, and alone. I feel as if nothing good happened during those last 3 years. I feel like the best moments of my life happened as soon as I graduated from that god-forsaken place. Is that normal? Highschool is supposed to be the best days of your life after all. Then again, a friend once told me "Highschool is the best days of your life IF you didn't go to college/university".

*Sigh*

Sometimes I wish I could warp my brain to forget all those memories. I like that they molded me into who I am now, but I wish I didn't have to remember it. I wish I didn't have to remember all the people who hurt me...who left me. I wish all the immature people who currently still have the same mindset as they did in highschool... stupid people who have nothing better to do then to keep up with mine... I wish they would just evaporate. I'm strong enough to handle it all - I've proven that much... I just wish we all could forget it. I wish I could walk around and see all those people and just...not know them. Is that cruel? I'm not talking about everyone...just the select few.

God...I just wish it would all go away.